How do you rejuvenate a weary soul when you feel so lost for a long time? You do it by facing the problem and moving forward.
I had to confront that type of problem this fall. For more than a year, my life was miserable. A health issue had plagued me. I tried to deny its existence. But after so much anguish, where I no longer could enjoy life, I gathered up my nerve and went to my primary doctor. He prescribed a medicine, which ended up giving me every kind of side effect mentioned, such as dizziness and foggy vision. I called the office and they referred me to a specialist.
From there, I eventually ended up seeing a woman doctor. She tried one remedy but I could not tolerate that solution. The next option was surgery.
“Surgery,” the word hung on my lips. I had never had an operation. The only time I was in the hospital was when I gave birth to four sons. Now, this avenue faced me.
I tried a chiropractor. He was a nice man and did his best, but my problem had deteriorated to such a point that method did not work.
A friend urged me to get a second opinion. Finally, I took her advice. The smiley doctor came in and gave me his honest recommendation, which was the same as the first opinion – surgery. However, during this visit, he talked about what would happen down the road if I let it go. This frightened me. I had to face the music as they say. After the visit, I returned home and called the first doctor’s office to schedule the procedure.
February first was my day of reckoning. We also all experience those days in our writing. Should we write this story? Will this book sell? Is there enough emotion in this to make this novel work? If nonfiction, can I make this information interesting?
These are difficult decisions, which also must be confronted. How do we decide these? We do through asking others in the field, our readers or taking professional advice as I did. In other words, we rejuvenate our writing souls.
We enlist fresh ideas, we rewrite, we fine tune until we reach the state of proficiency. We are in control of our fate. We edge forward with our next great idea just like I moved ahead to do the procedure.
Where will we end up? We do not know. But after my “surgery,” I can say I am no longer in misery. I again am living my life to the fullest as God provided.
Are you? If not proceed forward, what do you have to lose? Nothing. You do not know what you will miss if you do not put one foot before the other and step toward your next destination. Why? Because you do not know what will happen if you do not, and that alone should keep you moving onward. God bless.
Hmm… I’m seeing a journey here comparable to the grieving process. First, there was denial. the pain of realizing there is a problem, bargaining (trying other avenues to bypass that which you feared most), loneliness/depression/reflection (where you realize you have to go through it), and finally acceptance. I see a parallel to the situation where a writer sees sales fall and has to realize there’s nothing he/she can do to control it.
I guess the grieving process relates to many areas in life. (And here I thought my Psychology degree did nothing for me.) 🙂
Oh, I should add the only way through the grieving process is to admit there’s something to grieve and push through all the steps. They can’t be rushed, and everyone will recover at different rates.
I never thought about that. You are so right, and it was good your psychology degree came in handy with the diagnosis. Good for you!
Thank you for this, Janet! I’ve had a number of issues, mostly health-related, interfere with the creative process for some time now. I’ve been hanging onto an idea for years now, loving the characters but not sure I can make their story work, putting all the other projects I could be doing on hold while I struggle with it. Maybe it’s just not the right story at all.
This is what we struggle with all the time. Will my idea work once I start writing it? Perhaps, write a page or so and see how it flows then go from there. Just a suggestion but join the group in not knowing whether to proceed or not. Good luck, best wishes and God bless.
How are you feeling now, Janet? All’s well, I hope.
I am doing well and just passed my seven-week checkup. I am glad I had it done but the decision was a difficult one. God bless.
When I went through a health crisis a few years back and had to have chemo treatments (all fine now), I worked on writing-related projects. I pulled together my blog posts on gardening into a book. I typed up my great grandfather’s Civil War journal and published it. I kept my toe in the game as much as I could through the fatigue and brain slog. I’m happy you’re doing well now!
That is so good you did that. Nothing better then to keep your mind focused. Glad all went well for you. God bless.