I’m Not Going Away Just Because You Attack Me

I woke from terrible dreams of readers chasing me with pitchforks and torches, in the worst kind of censorship as they burned books they believed unworthy, and banned freedom to share writing with the masses. This included digital books, fanfic, and cell phone novels. I just wanted to curl deeper into my covers and sleep away the terrible dreams. I really didn’t want to get out of bed this morning, but I did.

My wonderful husband was still home, getting ready for work, and I wanted to tell him what happened last night. Except he would never understand the roll of emotions inside me. He would never understand how the opinion of readers that weren’t even mine could leave me feeling sad, angry, and hurt. Hell, I don’t even understand it.

They weren’t attacking me personally. They were attacking self-publishing as a whole. And the dumb part is one woman claimed to never read self-published authors but only the classics. Is she even aware at how many of those classics are self-published? And how many were picked up by publishers after the author was dead and buried? Probably not.

It more then that though. They were attacking the hard work of authors that just want their story heard. They were attacking the sterotypes that have been placed on authors that have decided to go it alone. They were attacking our freedom of speech, wanting to censor who has the right to publish a book. As if it was their God given right.

It wasn’t personal, but it was personal. Yeah, I know I’m contradicting myself. It wasn’t my work on display being ridiculed, but it could have been.

Is my work above being laughed at? Not in a million years. I’ve found mistake in it. I correct it as I find it. Is it my best work? To date, yes. Will I continue to improve? Of course. Will I let others get me down? Never.

I’ll continue upon the course I set for myself and my writing back in January 2010 when I decided to forgo publishing with a publishing house for self-publishing, or indie publishing. It is a plan that fits who I am and my lifestyle. Publishing through a publishing house wouldn’t work for me. I prefer to be my own boss. I prefer to be in control. I prefer to have the freedom only self-publishing can give me.

So it’s time to get out the armor, strap on the kantana, the guns, the knives, maybe a gernade or two and face the world well armed. I’m tired of being meek and mild. I’m tired of hiding. It’s time to defend myself and fight back.

6 thoughts on “I’m Not Going Away Just Because You Attack Me

  1. David Knight September 11, 2010 / 1:46 pm

    Yeeeehaaaaaa ! Write on Steph! Dave AscensionForYou

  2. Ruth Ann Nordin September 12, 2010 / 10:48 pm

    You’re example of the woman who only reads classics but not self-published books is showing exactly how ignorant a lot of these people are. They assume the publishing industry is the same way today as it always was. I say next time they come after you to attack, add us from SPAL into the dream and we’ll attack back. 😛

    • Stephannie Beman September 13, 2010 / 2:54 pm

      LOL I wanted to tell that woman that she should learn her history before she disclaims she never read a self-published classic book. Most of the classics are self-published. The publishing industry is the same as it’s been for a hundred years, and is just now being forced to change. What people fail to understand is that the previous 4,000 years of history doesn’t have publishing houses. Publishing Houses is a Roman invention that is less than 2,000 years old, and it is nothing like the NY houses of a hundred years ago.

      True traditional publishing would be 30 slaves working the printing presses to print out the books that patrons (a.k.a. readers) want to add to their libraries. Oh wait! We call that Print-On-Demand. 😀

  3. Joleene Naylor September 13, 2010 / 8:06 am

    Wow! What a crazy dream! I second Ruth 😉 SPAL power! :-p

    • Stephannie Beman September 13, 2010 / 3:07 pm

      It was crazy, though crazy is nothing new with my dreams. 🙂 I’ll definitely bring SPAL authors with in my next dream.

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